Unfuckingbelievable.

I thought i had something real this time. A real friendship. a bond. an understanding. someone to keep you company at all hours of the night. I was wrong. I always have said age is but a number, and never assumed it could pull two people to polar opposites. Someone who I considered different, is in actuality, worse than your average. But I do understand, don't get me wrong. Just also understand that I won't want to waste another second worrying about a person that pushes me aside to to such a minority.

On another note, Tuesday and Wednesday will be productive. I get two days off, so -does happy dance- that means more time to me. Well not really. More to my AP project that's due in 19 days. Nonetheless I will get it done, I have to.

On the boyfriend note, yeah we had a little dispute last night..nothing major. I have come to realize that just because he doesn't say 'i love you too' it is the end of the world. I know how he feels. I have to let things like that go, because when it boils down to it...its just so minor. I love him, and I know nothing like that can come in between our love.

So Today, my friend Adam came over and we chilled for a while. It was refreshing, I haven't seen him in a while and we had a lot to talk about. I went and got my pathetic Winn-Dixie check and then made a trip to the bank and then Burger King. Later im taking my brother up to Dairy Queen to meet our dad and step-mom for some sweet stuff.

Afterward? AP AP AP. && Maybe I'll get to talk with the boyfrann if i have time.
<3

With Love

The 10-Year Plan

Alright, its late on a Saturday night and so I have decided to jot down some MAJOR things I plan to accomplish within the next 10 years. Keep in mind this would put me at the age of 26. No particular order, just off the top of my head.

1. Graduate high school
2. Get Into college
3. Graduate college with a decent degree
4. Get a bellybutton piercing
5. Get a tattoo
6. Take a trip to France
7. Get married
8. Witness a miracle
9. Lay in bed all day with a great guy
10. Be a manager of some company
11. Find my overall goal in life
12. Have my own house and car
13. Have a large bank account
14. Get braces
15. Have laser hair removal
16. See Niagara Falls with someone I love
17. Find the happiness I've always dreamed of.

Barbaric

So a bunch of shit has happened today. My mom is officially throw out of the house. My grandparents are ridiculous, absolutely ridiculous. My mother is 35 years old and obviously is still being treated as if shes fifteen. After screwing up the past 20 years of her life, starting with having me, she is actually trying to be straight. SO WHAT if she wants to go spend a week with her friend, whom lives MAYBE eight miles away. Its her life, obviously she is going to make her own decisions.

She comes here EVERY other day to clean the house and check in on us. That is more than she has ever done before, and honestly, it takes A LOT of responsibility off of me. I don't know why my grandparents insist upon having her up their asses 24/7 when all they do is scream at her and put her down.

So now they have stirred a bunch of shit up, and it looks like she finally told them off. I was gladly informed im not allowed to have any contact with her, what so ever and if they find out I do, im in serious trouble. Like stealing candy from a baby trouble.

And what am I told next? "Looks like you have to pick up the slack."

OH SURE, NO PROBLEM. LET ME GO TO SCHOOL 5 DAYS A WEEK TAKING A FULL HONORS AND AP SCHEDULE. WORK 6 DAYS A WEEK AT WINN-DIXIE AND STRESS MY BODY TO ITS MAX, WEB DESIGN ON THE SIDE FOR NFMCPP/NFMDRP, FLVS COURSES, DATE KODY, OH AND DID I MENTION IT WOULD BE NICE TO HAVE A SIXTEENTH-OF A SOCIAL LIFE?

THIS IS BULLSHIT.

AP English

So school is coming back soon, and I really CANT wait much longer. However, I DO have an AP English III summer reading assignment that is ALSO due when school comes back. this is going to be my only way to get it done on time so here goes. Disregard my planning and deadlines, but maybe if I do it this way, I'll get somewhere. Don't preach to me until you've actually read these two amazingly boring books.

A Long Way Gone: Memoirs of a Boy Soldier
SUNDAY JULY 27 - FINISHED CHAPTERS 1-10
TUESDAY JULY 29 - FINISHED CHAPTERS 11-16
THURSDAY JULY 31 - FINISHED CHAPTERS 17-21

Beloved
SATURDAY AUGUST 2 - FINISHED CHAPTERS 1-10
MONDAY AUGUST 4 - FINISHED CHAPTERS 11-17
WEDNESDAY AUGUST 6 - FINISHED CHAPTERS 18-23
FRIDAY AUGUST 8 - FINISHED CHAPTERS 24-28

SUNDAY AUGUST 10 - FINISHED ESSAY & PRINT. PRINT FINISHED JOURNALS.

SCHOOL GOES BACK AUGUST 18TH!!! :D