A Friend

a supremely wise friend, once gave me great advice. "Relying on other people only makes us weaker." I couldn't agree more, too bad I waited to late to agree. Today was blah, too many substitutes to count. Didn't really do much of anything. No homework. I couldn't really ask for much more. I assuringly already ask for the world. Tonight I'll be at school basically all night. Leaving here at 6:00 and wont be home until almost 10:00. My mind is in a thousand different places currently and concentration is almost impossible. I just, I hurt so bad inside. Its one thing to make yourself emotionless, but numb is a deathly-scary emotion to feel. I am excited for prom, or am I, anymore? I know I am. I am in love with Kody, or am I, anymore? I know I am. I am dreading my due dates, or am I, anymore? I KNOW I am. Life is just so complicated, lets hit the pause button and relax for a bit; or maybe rewind and re-live the good days. Regardless of the button pressed, life will happen sooner or later, lets just suck it up, stiffen up our upper lips, and hold our heads high towards the heavens.

"How can you trust others, when you don't trust yourself."