Monday, March 31, 2008
Start
of the week, looks promising. (: Today was pretty easy, not one class was too difficult. I will have a bunch of substitutes tomorrow because of the Jr. Class arena scheduling. I had another Doctors appointment today, my infection is gone, the skin is just inflamed, so thats good news for me. No real homework tonight, except working on the never-ending list of research papers due the second and third weeks of April. Tomorrow, Second period - in the computer lab, If I don't say it here, I will definitely forget. Oh, for my daily dosage of Kody in my bloggage, I loveee that boy. End of story.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Sunday
Okay so last night I got off work at 6:00 and then came home, finished up some laundry and went to see Shutter. It was amazingly scary but if your into scary movies, I highly recommend it. This morning I woke up at 8:22 and ate breakfast, did two (almost three) loads of laundry and did my response paper for English. Feeling quite accomplished. Work from 11:00-6:00 today at the wonderful world of Winn-Dixie then I've got to manage my time super wisely. Before 7:00 I want to finish my last load of laundry and finish my math homework. I'll eat shower and bed right before 10:00 and all that goes well ends well. Tomorrow, Monday, favorite day of the week. That means seeing Kody's face five days in a row :) but in reality it will be seven, because PRRROMMMMMM! is next Saturday and we will be out until after 12:00 am. (: I'm excited. I know, its very noticeable. I try to subside it, but In reality I can't. Its going to be the best night, ever. With the most amazing guy, ever. I lovee that boy. Despite everything, really, I do. Its less than an hour until Work, and here I am blogging, I really should go get ready. I might blog later, but don't hold me to it.
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Saturday
brings another day of work. The usual 11-6 routine but hopefully going to have some plans afterwards with a few friends. I got my entire double-entry quote journal completed last night for English class, im super excited. I will complete the project next next Tuesday. Tonight my alternative would be starting my communist manifesto paper for World History. Sounds exciting huh. Well going to Kody's is out of the question for two reasons, one he has company and two I need to keep my distance. Bite my tongue, prom is in a week. I'm super excited. It, however, will be a long long longggg never ending week. Doctors appointment on Monday at 2:30 and Dentist appointment on Thursday at 2:30 (but I get to leave school at 12:00 because its in Lehigh) Then don't get me started on next Friday. All that goes well ends well, and after work, I will result to a blog for further information.
Friday, March 28, 2008
Its Been A While
It's been a while
since i could say that i wasn't addicted and
It's been a while
Since I could say I love myself as well and
It's been a while
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like i always do
It's been a while
But all that shit seems to disappear when i'm with you
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again
its been a while since I have blogged. Big blog ahead. Life in the past week has flown past me without any trace but that of sorrow and pressure. I turn around and I'm falling from grace, I revolve once again and I'm left picking myself up. A lot has gone on since the 21st of March. Lets take it day by day, that seems like my only option these days. The fears I have when I wake up are so real I want to crawl back into my warm blankets and bury myself in my fantasy.
Sunday, March 23rd - I didn't blog on Sunday because I was up from 4:00 AM until about 10:30 PM and that was by force due to my grandpas late arrival. I woke up, showered, put on my glamor face including a dress and heels and was off to Kody's for Sunrise Easter Sunday services at church and a long long Easter Sunday. It was pleasant, the whole family was their, and that includes both sets of grandparents, his great grandma, his aunt and her boyfriend and the immediate family/siblings. It was a ton of fun and it was another holiday spent with people I truly care about. Best Easter. (PS: not to give away Kody's secrets, but he turns into a freakishly cute and cranky 10 year old when hes tired)
Monday, March 24th - I didn't blog on Monday because even though there was no school I was busy getting all of my previously-procrastinated homework completed. Enough said.
Tuesday, Wednesday & Thursday March 25th-27th - I didn't blog on Tuesday, Wednesday & Thursday because school has got the best of me. I really have to step it up, and I'm trying oh-so hard. School until 2:00 PM then homework until about 11:30 PM and after that, blogging is not the 'B' word on my mind, but rather 'BED' or 'BLANKET' (:
So today I blog in lack of the previous-almost week. I have been contemplating life to myself lately. I now realize more than ever that Happiness is not something sitting for me on a doormat. But something harder to find than a golden ticket wrapped around a Wonka bar or a gallon of gas for under $3.00. Life isn't going to give me any slack. I have to fight for myself, and when I am thrown down, I have to learn to pick myself up. I can no longer rely on another human being for anything. In reality, nobody cares. Its tough to face as a reality, but once you do, you will be so much better off. (if that makes sense) Its hard. All my life, I pray for someone like that, someone to at least pretend that they care, to give me a sense of security and happiness and I thank god, that I have finally found him. Its the light on a dark situation. I love Kody Peterson. More and more everyday. && Contrary to popular belief, there are no stages of love. It is what it is, you create its definition.
since i could say that i wasn't addicted and
It's been a while
Since I could say I love myself as well and
It's been a while
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like i always do
It's been a while
But all that shit seems to disappear when i'm with you
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again
its been a while since I have blogged. Big blog ahead. Life in the past week has flown past me without any trace but that of sorrow and pressure. I turn around and I'm falling from grace, I revolve once again and I'm left picking myself up. A lot has gone on since the 21st of March. Lets take it day by day, that seems like my only option these days. The fears I have when I wake up are so real I want to crawl back into my warm blankets and bury myself in my fantasy.
Sunday, March 23rd - I didn't blog on Sunday because I was up from 4:00 AM until about 10:30 PM and that was by force due to my grandpas late arrival. I woke up, showered, put on my glamor face including a dress and heels and was off to Kody's for Sunrise Easter Sunday services at church and a long long Easter Sunday. It was pleasant, the whole family was their, and that includes both sets of grandparents, his great grandma, his aunt and her boyfriend and the immediate family/siblings. It was a ton of fun and it was another holiday spent with people I truly care about. Best Easter. (PS: not to give away Kody's secrets, but he turns into a freakishly cute and cranky 10 year old when hes tired)
Monday, March 24th - I didn't blog on Monday because even though there was no school I was busy getting all of my previously-procrastinated homework completed. Enough said.
Tuesday, Wednesday & Thursday March 25th-27th - I didn't blog on Tuesday, Wednesday & Thursday because school has got the best of me. I really have to step it up, and I'm trying oh-so hard. School until 2:00 PM then homework until about 11:30 PM and after that, blogging is not the 'B' word on my mind, but rather 'BED' or 'BLANKET' (:
So today I blog in lack of the previous-almost week. I have been contemplating life to myself lately. I now realize more than ever that Happiness is not something sitting for me on a doormat. But something harder to find than a golden ticket wrapped around a Wonka bar or a gallon of gas for under $3.00. Life isn't going to give me any slack. I have to fight for myself, and when I am thrown down, I have to learn to pick myself up. I can no longer rely on another human being for anything. In reality, nobody cares. Its tough to face as a reality, but once you do, you will be so much better off. (if that makes sense) Its hard. All my life, I pray for someone like that, someone to at least pretend that they care, to give me a sense of security and happiness and I thank god, that I have finally found him. Its the light on a dark situation. I love Kody Peterson. More and more everyday. && Contrary to popular belief, there are no stages of love. It is what it is, you create its definition.
Friday, March 21, 2008
Church
tonight again with Kody and the family. (or family to be) Last night was amazing, the service was highly interesting and im really starting to get into the religion. Tonight should be anything but a disappointment, its good Friday. The rest of the weekend will be controlled chaos. Work tomorrow 11-6 then on Sunday from 8-3 (possibly 8-2) and Kody's afterwards. Monday is homework day, I plan to get it all done and out of the way, then back to school on Tuesday. Prom is exactly 15 days away, and I am over-the-top excited. Off to get ready, a long and fulfilled night ahead.
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